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A portrait within...

A photographer dies inside me, I bury it deep as and when it pleases me not because I am some sadist to myself but because that's what this world made me think of myself. I am however thankful to those worst experiences too which made me a better person now. I am pouring out words now, right now... just the very moment as a film or  I should  say  an experience hit me  yesterday night. I never thought RAGHU RAI AN UNFRAMED PORTRAIT  would bring great introspection and sorrow to me. I used to envy Avani Rai for being the legend's daughter (I apologize for that and when she mentioned in the film - that it is even hard for a daughter to become like her father, that she can never become like him. it took my heart and enviousness away. It was needed.) I was also amazed with the quote which ran through her voice over- 'Your children are not your children. They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself' by Khalil Gibran. Also that our parents are just the medium through which we arrived on this universe they do not really own us. She is also finding her own way out. Its a journey within I guess.. which we all are seeking.

 I met him once and it turned out  to be an upside down experience I observed him and tried to understand him, his photography, his journey, his life. Altogether HIM, what made him 'RAGHU RAI'. Why he calls himself a DEEWANA. This film brought it altogether. I was not courageous enough to face him that moment and felt really small of myself. But as the movie unfolds his character I related with him. I felt that I am on a right path. And the photographer inside me was sleeping for a long time now.. it indeed has been a long time that it made me feel it is dead but no... this experience rejuvenated that photographer inside this girl with the beginner's camera hanging around her neck. For obvious reasons one can only learn and get inspirations from mentors and we gotta find our way on our own. It is an impure art but it is an art indeed, that is what matters to me.I have a lot to say and feel but even my words are not enough to bring it all here. From the beginning till end my eyes were filled with tears which I could not resist. As the movie ended this picture happened. A best feeling ever.